Monday, November 26, 2007

time is short

I'm not supposed to be at an age where people my age are either dying or dead. I saw his name in the papers and I was completely taken aback. I thought, Maybe it's not him, but how many people in Singapore have his name?

It's too tragic. I'm not supposed to be thinking of going to wakes of people around my age. It's just not right.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

i feel like...

As I sat on the toilet bowl earlier today, I felt comnpletely and very much like a sewer. Whereby my intestines are sewer pipes. And my poo, the sewage.

I'm sorry if the graphic image has caused you to lose your appetite. Actually, I highly recommend food poisoning for a crash diet. Because throughout the entire week, I kept running to the toilet every couple of minutes or so (luckily my bed is almost right next to the toilet), I kept sleeping, and I *gasp* completely lost all appetite. My brother cooked some watery porridge with some ham, and I threw it up. So I'm a bit off ham for the time being (Subway's Cold Cut Trio... NooOooOoOO...).

Anyway, I finally went to see yet another doctor for the 'sewage problem', and he gave me charcoal tablets and some medicine for "symptomatic treatment", i.e. only stops the sewage from spewing ever so often, but does not cure the virus or whatever it is that's causing the sewage to become... sewage. I was so sick, even the clerks at the clinic seemed worried that I'd spew all over their floor. Thanks for putting up with me. Really appreciate the warm water too.

Oh, I woke up on Monday feeling really warm. So I took out my trusty thermometer (with me since the days of SARS! Everyone should have a thermometer of their own in their homes, you never know when you'll need it). Put it in my mouth, waited for the beep. I wasn't surprised that it started beeping the 'fever' beep. I was more... stunned? amused? worried? perplexed? at the temperature shown. I've never seen such a high temperature recorded on my thermometer, btw. The last time it was this high was some time back in 2004, when I was on my way home feeling tired and giddy, and it was only 38.4.

My thermometer showed me a temperature of 39.8.

I don't know how I got through the rest of the day. I think I just took a wash cloth, tried to cool myself down, tried to take some paracetemol from the UBER expensive doctor I went to last Sunday, but it didn't work. For all her fancy medicine (the commercial name of the medicine was printed on the pills, fancy huh?), they were pretty useless. And of course, I always get prescribed anti-biotics, which I always refuse to take. I stopped taking anti-biotics after one time I took it on an empty stomach, and promptly threw it all up. So no more anti-biotics for me.

Anyway, I'm here typing this cos I'm still psyching myself up for staff retreat. Gotta sleep soon! Have to be fresh and alert for the activities tmr! =D

Friday, November 09, 2007

something to watch

I can never sleep early the night before the start of a new school week, or after a day's break away from school. Actually it's a recent thing. I just can't sleep early. I think it's work stress. Maybe. But really, it's sometimes a bit annoying, cos that means I don't get a good rest and hence I am not out in full force on Mondays. But I guess that's the price one's gotta pay.

Also, two parents called me over the past two days. I try very hard not to give out my hp number unless neccessary, or unless I feel a need to. However, I don't give my hp number to parents, because it just opens up a whole can of worms. "Hello? Can I ask you something about my daughter/son?" is a perfectly fine question. WHEN I AM IN THE OFFICE. It's almost like I'm working 24/7, when I get a call at 10.50pm. When I get a call on a public holiday. It's just very wrong. I don't get my rest. I don't get my time off. I keep thinking about work and end up not getting enough rest.

Anyhow, I was talking about not being able to sleep early the night before.

So I was thinking about Neil Gaiman's Stardust, which was made into a movie, and was recently released in Singapore. I was reading the book today, and there are some parts of the movie that I liked more, and some parts of the book I liked more. All in all, the book and movie complement each other perfectly. If you haven't watched Stardust, do go watch it!

Here's the 'official' song for the movie, which played at the end of show:

I can't wait for the DVD.

Monday, November 05, 2007


Everyone has food! Except me! Why!

Okay, I know why. Cos I didn't want to cook instant mee again, and I also refused to go downstairs to buy food. I never did like buying food from downstairs and eating at home. In fact, I dislike eating at home. That's why I always look for people to have dinner with. But I've to slowly learn to eat meals on my own.

In fact, everyone is eating! Earlier in the evening, my beloved Motobabe suddenly smsed me: "I'd just like to let u know i just ate a strawberry sundae. It was very very good. And now i have a cup of honey milk tea." I HATE YOU!!!

One time, a while back, I think I smsed my brother, asking him to get food or something, and he replied, "Ur outside and have a car, buy anything u want -_-" "


I think no one understands my need to have dinners together with someone. It's my last form of social contact! I do everything else alone. Well, almost. Anyone for Stardust? Or else I'm going to watch it one of these days. SOON. I've been waiting for it for quite a while. The book is nice, very lyrical, the way I like my books.

Speaking of books, I read two books today! Not including the one I stayed up till 2am to finish reading. I love books. And I love the NLB for always doubling the loan quota every holiday period. Love love love books.

And now I'm going to sulk cos I don't have food to eat.