one more day

It starts tmr.

TOMORROW!

I'm not prepared! I have a Lam Peng Kuan textbook to finish before tmr! And a guidebook I got from my ex-tutee. I forgot to get my textbooks back from Bear!!! SHIT!

And I haven't duplicated the forms needed for tmr. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...

...

Actually I'm not all that nervous, just that I get the feeling I'm going to forget something important, or be late, or something equally devastating on my first day.

Recently, I've been watching this particular Japanese drama, Nodame Cantabile. Super good! Thanks to Saizou for getting me hooked. This is a thousand and one times better than Hana Kimi. Firstly, the male lead is just the kind of guy I like, and secondly, the female lead is CUTE, not overbearingly stupid like the character Ella plays. And best of all, it's about music! Though I don't know the names of half the pieces, lots of them are familiar. One of my long-term goals is to go back to learning the piano, but it can't be too long-term, cos I want to go back to my old teacher. I haven't contacted her since I stopped lessons in 2002. She kinda watched me grow up, really. I started learning from her when I was about 6? 7? and only stopped after not passing my ATCL(Recital) when I was 18.

I feel like making something else a regular activity besides Kendo. WORK???? Haha.

心动

I finally heard the lyrics after skipping over the song since the first time you sent it to me. Thanks.

Happy Valentine's Day to all the lucky ones!



有多久没见你
以为你在那里
原来就住在我的心底
陪伴着我的呼吸

有多远的距离
以为闻不到你的气息
谁知道你背影这么长
回头就看到你

过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果
不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
我心动的痕迹

过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果
不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
我心动的痕迹
总是想再见你
还试着打探你的消息
原来
你就住在我的身体
守护我的回忆

Hate Me

i have to block out thoughts of you so i don't lose my head;
they're crawling like a cockroach, leaving babies in my bed.

hate me today, hate me tomorrow,
hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.

so i'll drive so fucking far away that i'll never cross your mind,
and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.

and with a sad heart i say bye to you and wave...

i need time away from you again. sorry.

Billy

My mother, when I called her handphone from my old place, asked me, "Where are you now?" Hi, Mother, what's the point of having caller-id? Sometimes my mother asks the darndest things.

I was browsing at PageOne at VivoCity just now. (Sidetrack: I think can spend hours in there just looking at books, and wandering about. I just love books. One day, I'm going to have a room just filled with books and all my notes. Hoarder!)

So I was at PageOne just now. I caught sight of my mother out of the corner of my eye, and I walked towards her. However, when I reached the spot, she was gone. Thought she went up to the elevated area (Chinese books and Architecture), so I went up. And then I saw him. I actually stood there for a full minute, wondering if I should call my mother, or approach him. After internally debating, I walked up to him.

"Mr. M---!" He looked up, and smiled. "Heeeey! Oh my god, how long has it been! How are you??"

This is the man who tutored me for a good six years of my life, so you can say he saw me through adolescence. Then again, I was a good kid. Go to school, excited to go to tuition, then go home. Rinse and repeat.

This is the man whose opinion I trusted quite a fair bit, so when he said, "Go to VJC! You'll like it there!" I listened. You can say that without him, I wouldn't be here now. He managed to convince me to go to VJ, and that's quite a mean feat, cos back then I only wanted to go somewhere I was familiar with. I wanted to go to AJ cos half my classmates were going there. Like, seriously, almost the whole school wanted to go there. At that time, that was the best we could hope for. But he convinced me otherwise, and it's because of him that I went to VJ, and learnt for the first time that even though I know no one in a new place, I'll always make new friends. That's why I majored in Mathematics at NUS even though no one I knew was crazy/stupid/insane enough to.

I think without him, I wouldn't be where I am today. I'd have stuck with people I know, my world growing smaller and smaller because I'm too scared to step away from familiar things.

He's still a technology idiot, but he finally has a phone. He will never read this post, because he detests the internet and all other forms of modern tech, but still I need to say this, because I've never really realised this before.

Thanks so much for being my teacher, for guiding me through those years, and being a friend while maintaining the teacher-student relationship. Thanks for unknowingly nudging me towards the person I am today, and the teacher I will hopefully be some day. Thank you so much!!!